NOT A FLUKE!!

So, I went on the treadmill again.  As I started running, I thought I was going to die... really, it was much harder than I remember.  BUT... I jogged, and listed to Mumford and Sons, and jogged, and listened, until finally, I hit 20 minutes of jogging.  Yes, sirs and madames, I jogged 1 1/2 miles again... no joke! :-)  What an excellent thing!

Kicking This Week's Ass With Food

Since I am no longer throwing myself a pity party about not losing weight, I have decided that I am going to kick ass this week!!

I blogged early today about my choices of food today.  While I went over my points, I stuck with my plan to have salad for dinner.  And after I was good with the food, I jogged for 15 minutes after some rocking inspiration.

Keeping with the butt-kicking plan, my meals for tomorrow are all planned.

Breakfast:
Carnation Breakfast Shake (4 points)
Watermelon (0 points)
Coffee (0 points)
Iced Tea (0 points)

Lunch:
Salad (0 points)
Tuna Salad (4 points)-- Complete with capers, black olives, and other deliciousness.
Light and Fit Vanilla Yogurt (2 points)
Weight Watchers Honey Dijon Pretzels (3 points)
Water (0 points)
Iced Tea (0 points)

Dinner:
Chipotle Chicken Burrito Bowl (15 points)
-Rice
-Beans
-Chicken
-Mild Salsa
-1/4 amount of sour cream
-1/2 guacamole
-LETTUCE (as much as will completely fill the bowl!!)

So, that's my day! :-)  And for your viewing pleasure I am including below the picture of my delicious salad with tuna and veggies, and my lunch spread for tomorrow.

Delicious 4 point salad. 
Lettuce, baby corn, olives, tomatoes, chives, capers, and tuna salad.

Food. Already prepared for tomorrow.

Inspiration

Inspiration can come in many forms.  Tonight I had a true moment of inspiration.

Before I share my exciting news, I need to back track.  If you never have been to a Weight Watchers meeting it is hard to understand the power, impact, and inspiration you can get from them.  It's like summer camp or study abroad.  It's not something you can really explain.  I know that many of my friends don't understand why I text someone I barely know, but my weight watchers friends are honestly the people that get me through the week.  They are the ones I can text when I am feeling guilty about eating or need help NOT eating something. 

Many of you don't know my friend Serina.  She is one of the most beautiful human beings both inside and out.  In less than a year, she has become one of the most important people in my life and in this journey.

This evening I was writing a paper for Hamline, totally resigned that I would not get to work out.  Then I decided it was important to read Serina's blog.  I saw her entry about running a mile.  And like that, I felt a surge of determination rush through me and I knew I had to go to the gym!!  So, off I went...

ONE MILE!!!! I JOGGED ONE MILE!!!! :-)

I WAS STILL JOGGING AT A MILE AND A HALF!!!!

I burned a total of almost 230 calories.

My total distance when I was done!!

Just Feeling Gross

So, yesterday was weigh in and day and for the second week I gained weight... BLARG!  That's truly how I feel.  BLARG!!   It's funny too because I walked into school today and people were commenting left and right about how skinny I look.  That made me feel pretty happy because I wasn't feeling oh-so-great before then.

I have discovered what I think is to be part of the problem.  I am back to my old eating ways.  And I don't mean eating THOUSANDS of calories everyday, but what I do mean is the Emily who doesn't care if she is full or not and will just keep eating.

Destined to have a good day today, I diligently wrote down what I was eating today:

Breakfast:

Coffee

Cereal

Apple

Lunch:

Lean Pocket

Chicken Drumstick

1/2 cup of mashed potatoes

Dinner:

Tuna Salad (more salad than tuna) :-)

With this plan in mind I felt good to start the day.  Breakfast went as planned... excellent...

Then lunch arrived.  I was accidentally given 2 chicken drumsticks and more potatoes than I wanted.  So, instead of throwing it away, what did I do?  Eat them.  Both.  And the corn salad.  AND A YOGURT!  Why did I eat the yogurt?  Because it was there... what kind of dumb ass reason is that?  Ok, you would think that I would stop there, because by this point I AM NOT HUNGRY!  But my mouth and my sweet tooth are saying... "HOT TAMALES!!"  So, what did I do?  I ate them too.

Yup, dinner hasn't even happened yet and I have no points left today.  And were the extra points worth it?   NO!!!  So not! 

I could get mad.  And cry (which I did do last night), but it's SO not worth it.  I will work out tonight.  I will eat WW tuna salad (more salad than tuna) and I will make sure that I am writing down EVERYTHING that I eat.  I am going to be a tracking fiend.  And I am going to lose this week. 

Because at this moment.  I don't feel satisfied... I don't feel happy... I just feel GROSS.... My stomach is all wonky and I just feel BLECHY (yes, that is a word I made up... it's called an Emilyism).

To quote a friend (who also happened to have quoted another one of our friends):

I got an e-mail from a friend this week about hitting a hurdle.  She says:

"If you bump into a hurdle, pick the hurdle up and kick that bitch off the track!"

So true...Hurdles are going to happen.  That is just part of life.  Once you are willing to admit that you are there, kick that bitch right off the track and GET BACK ON!