I really should be lesson planning right now. I mean, REALLY REALLY should be. But instead, I am feeling compelled to blog.
For the last couple of weeks I have started to feel frustrated by something that people say at Weight Watchers meetings. I know I SHOULDN'T be feeling this way. However, I can't help but share my feelings.
We spend time talking about our 49 flex points and how that should keep me from feeling deprived. By using those I SHOULD be able to go out and enjoy myself and not feel like I can't eat certain things. But I think that is one of my big issues lately. I DO feel deprived. I DO feel like I can't eat what I want. And I know that is part of this process, part of the big life change... But, it's hard to go out for Chinese and really feel like I can't eat sesame chicken with rice. To know that if I go out for Mexican and eat fajitas from Don Pablos on a Thursday, that means that I will probably not get to have another meal out that week. And now that my schedule is getting even crazier I am having to eat out more and more. Therefore, I am really struggling to eat food, feel full, and stay within points. Maybe it's just me, but I don't find half of a subway sandwich filling.
Also, in order to eat a breakfast that will keep me full until 12:10, I have to use a good amount of points. And in order to feel full until the end of school I have to use another good amount of points. So, by the time I get to dinner I don't have very many points. And when I eat out I have to use a good amount of points. So I really feel like I don't ever have enough points.
Then, when people are talking about not feeling deprived, I really try to understand how people aren't feel deprived. Perhaps if I was eating more vegetables and filling foods.
But the truth is, I am feeling deprived.
So, it's Thursday. I have to make it to Tuesday evening and I only have 9 flex points left. I don't know how on Earth that is going to happen. I guess this week it is my goal to figure out how I can not feel deprived. How I can get my mind to wrap itself around the fact that I truly CAN'T eat as much as I used to.
I don't know if this post even makes sense, but it is just something that I wanted to get off my chest.