Everyday, I was feeling SO guilty and SO stressed out, that it was interfering with my job. Not only that, but I was feeling TERRIBLE about myself. Like a failure, like someone that doesn't know how to take care of themselves. It was truly becoming an obsessive issue and THIS is like old Emily. Obsessing, feeling guilty... And I DON'T want to be that person again. I was so unhappy for SO many years. Seriously. I'm feeling good about my body. I am feeling good about my life. I need to have a healthy relationship with food in order to make it through the next 21 days. And then I will sign up for another 5k! And I will join a dance class. And I will be making dinner all the time.
Tomorrow starts today. And today, I am making this decision, even though it may not be by the book, it's the decision that I have to make.
On a positive note, Shelby, THE BESTEST, sent me a card and I carry it with me!! It's a reminder! :-)
So thank you to those people who have sent me positive notes along the way! :-) Keep it up! They are going to help me get through these 21 days of hard eating!!! :-)